“RABBI’S MUSINGS (& AMUSINGS)”
Erev Shabbos Kodesh parshas Bamidbar
47th day of the Omer – Avos perek
6
3 Sivan 5781/May 14, 2021
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FAITHFUL JOURNEY
I was speaking to a friend recently,
shortly after the horrific Meron accident that took place on Lag BaOmer. Like
all of us, my friend was struggling to come to terms with what happened. When
he discussed the tragedy, the struggle within him kept bursting to the fore. First,
he said, “We have to have emunah that it’s all from Hashem.” But a moment later
he countered in a pained voice, “but how could it have happened?!” Then again,
“we have to have emunah that Hashem does everything for the best.” Then again,
“but it’s not possible that such a thing could happen, and in Meron on Lag
BaOmer!”
He felt guilty that he was
questioning G-d and so he immediately reassured himself that one must have
emunah. But it was clear that despite his best efforts the painful event
refused to be quelled within him.
I told him that the vacillating
tumultuous emotions were par for the course of internalizing emunah. We
sometimes have the mistaken and naïve notion that emunah is just something you
have or don’t have. We may therefore be embarrassed and hide the fact that at
times our emunah may be shaken and we have to struggle mightily to strengthen
our emunah. But the truth is that emunah is a process and a lifelong journey
that has ups and downs.
The following thoughts are from a
lecture given by Rabbi Avrohom Yachnes on Tisha B’av 5773 in Camp Dora Golding:
“What does it mean to believe in
Hashem? People say that seeing is believing. But the reality is not that way.
The truth is that not seeing is believing.
“I was once speaking to a group of
people. I removed my watch, held it up in front of them and asked them if they
believed that I had a watch. I told them that I hoped they didn’t say yes. The
reality it is that they didn’t believe I had a watch in my hand, because they definitively
knew it.
“I told them that if I were to hide
the watch and ask if they believed it was still there hidden from view, then
their answer would depend. If we had a trusting relationship and everything I told
them in the past had been true, then they could believe that in this case as
well the watch was still there. However, if we had no prior relationship, why
should they believe I have a watch just because I said so?
“Not seeing is believing IF you
trust the one telling you the facts.
“A few years ago, I was sitting in
an aisle seat on a plane, when a woman sitting opposite me noticed my yarmulka and
asked me if I believed in G-d? When I replied that I did she asked me how I
could believe in an entity I had never seen?
“I replied, “Ma’am I don’t want to
make you nervous, but we are currently flying at an altitude of 30,000 feet and
there are hundreds of other planes flying in the vicinity of our air space at
the same time. During the day when the pilot looks out the front window his
visibility is about 5 miles. At night, with the headlights on, his visibility
is only about 500 yards. Planes travel on average about 600 mph. Did you ever
wonder how come one plane doesn’t ever “meet” another plane by mistake in
midair?
“The answer is that in the cockpit
there is a consul that has many beeping lights. “Using radar those beeping
lights represent other planes and based on that the pilot knows to keep a safe
distance from other planes. That means that the pilot doesn’t actually see the
other planes. Yet, he believes they are there based on radar.
“I told the woman that if the pilot
flies a plane based on belief, then I can also believe in G-d even though I
never saw him.
“The reality is that if you want to
believe you will. Faith is a matter of choice.
“I was waiting on line in a store in
Boro Park a few years ago, and I struck up a conversation with the fellow
behind me. “He told me he was a ba’al teshuva. A few years earlier he had been completely
unobservant, but at that point he was wearing tzitzis, eating kosher, keeping
Shabbos, etc.
“When I asked him how long it took
him to become religious, he replied five minutes. “He explained that he was on
the seventy-eighth floor of the Twin Towers on September 11, 2001, when a plane
crashed into it. It took him five minutes to run down the steps to safety. At
that moment he knew unequivocally that G-d was sending him a message and he
immediately embraced a life of Torah and mitzvos.
“There were thousands of people who
escaped the towers that day. Yet, they didn’t become ba’alei teshuva as he did.
He seized the moment and recognized that G-d had saved him and so he had a
responsibility to do something.”
Some people think Judaism advocates
blind faith. This is a mistake. The basis of our connection with Hashem is a
knowing relationship. In the concluding words of Aleinu we say, “And you will
know today, and you will return to your heart that Hashem is your G-d; there is
no other.” By studying the world, analyzing history, and primarily by studying
Torah, we develop emphatic knowledge of the one true G-d. It is based on that
knowledge that we build emuna – to have faith in Hashem even when we don’t
understand why He does things and how He runs His world.
A colleague once told me that he once
attended the painful funeral of an eight-year-old girl who died in a fire. At
her funeral, her father wept and said, “far deer iz lichtig oon meer darf hubben
emunah – For you there’s only light (in the world of truth), and I
have faith.”
In the most painful times, we walk
ahead in darkness with the light of our faith. Sometimes that light may seem to
dim but we seek to fan its flame and strengthen it within us.
A Jew learns to live with questions.
At times he has to strengthen his emunah but that is the path to greatness.
The introduction to the Aseres
Hadibros is “I am Hashem your G-d who took you out of Egypt.” Before relating
the commandments, G-d relates His personal connection with us. The foundation
of our connection to Torah is based on emunah – our personal connection with
the divine.
This year, Hashem transformed Lag
BaOmer into Tisha B’av. Now we wait for when Tisha B’av will be transformed into
Lag BaOmer!
Shabbat Shalom & Good Shabbos
Chag Sameiach & Freilichen Yom
Tov,
R’ Dani and Chani Staum